It couldn't have happened at a worse time.
This is typically the time of year when I am completely consumed with Halloween preparations. Pumpkins. Candy. Spooky movies. Props. And prop disasters. I embrace it all. But this year, I find myself horribly distracted. Distracted by real life. With few thoughts to spare for Halloween. Because unfortunately, my "Halloween Preparation Season" has coincided with "Serious Decision Making Season". And the serious decision making time is winning out over Halloween preparation time.
Since losing my job last winter, I'll admit I've been coasting along. Looking for an ideal job. But it appears that "ideal" jobs are few and far between here. As least for me. Now, with my unemployment benefits about to expire, I have some real thinking to do. I hate that. Although the choices are relatively simple. I could continue to search for an appealing job and try to get by with less money. I could return to school and train for something for which there might be a demand. Risky. Or I could hopefully return to an old, if not exactly ideal, job. Maybe.
But, in the meantime, while I bounce those options around in my head, the Halloween clock is ticking. And I am finding it increasingly difficult to focus on pumpkins and costumes and props. But this weekend, I'm going to try my hardest to push the more serious thoughts aside for a while and just think of Halloween. Try to work on some props. Maybe visit a pumpkin patch (one more successful than my own). Otherwise, by the time Halloween arrives, I'll likely have made a decision. But I'll have missed all the fun.